The night I had a long text exchange about self image with the runner girl friend, I had a lucid dream. It was vivid and double-layered. In the dream, I was asleep and having a lucid dream.
In The Lucid Drean In The Dream
I was supposedly at the same age as I am now but wore a short hair just like when I was a fat kid. In my whole childhood, I kept my hair short because I didn’t feel pretty or feminine and thought a boyish hairstyle suited me better. I looked around and observed two people standing next to me and talking about trivial thing, never minding how different I looked. My eyes in the upper layer of the double-layered lucid dream was observing the whole thing from above. But THAT was not me. It was part of my consciousness right above my subconsciousness.
Scream From Within
I turned to the 2 people and said, “Don’t believe what you are seeing because this is not truth.” I didn’t know how to explain to them that it was a dream. It was not even their dreams, but they were just characters in my dream. “This is not real!”, I screamed, “You are in a dream – you are free!” They looked totally confused. I shook their shoulders and tried to convince them. I didn’t have time. A lucid dream would be rapidly aborted as soon as it was revealed – that’s the law.
“Do whatever you want!”
“Say whatever you want to say!!”
“Now is your chance… !!!”
Before I could finish, the vacuum started out of nowhere and pulled everything into the void. It was like being sucked into a black hole, and my vision and consciousness were stretched out and then lost.
The Upper Layer
I woke up. I was still in a dream. It was the upper layer of the double-layered lucid dream: “Lucid Dream #1”. I knew I had to wake up again because it was not real. I knew I was not the real me. “I am dreaming…,” I said and felt the strong vacuum in my head. It was the law. The dream had to be terminated because it was revealed as a lucid dream. My consciousness was being sucked into another black hole. It traveled through a dark tunnel for a few seconds and reached the other side. I woke up again. This time, for real.